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get from round me.

2009-07-13T16:44:00.000-07:00

yes bitches was on a little hiatus from blogspot so hmm where should i start off? well its been a hot minute since ive updated so i came back with a semi hot layout . kept it plain and cute. anyways so recently ive been job huntin and also still tryna get to my goal weight which is 175-180lbs . waist size 32/34. i keep reading about diet plans via inet but like all look like so much work and people always say you cant starve yourself to lose weight...then how are anerexic people so skinny? hmph. makes sence...

last friday i went to this poppin club with my homegirl candra and her 2 friends and i got throwed...well actually beyond throwed i got shit faced. had 7 cups of vodka and juice and i threw up ina corner of the club thank god nobody saw me cept a bouncer who had his other bouncers kick me out lmao . and apparently i was cussin and tryna push them off me but trust when i tell you..i dont even remember that night. AT ALL! cept getting home and stumbling to get to the bathroom to shower and puke more. ugh never again will i drink that much on an empty stomach. my friends have pics as blackmail but i swear if they get posted there will be some deaths.

what happened to that boy jovanny? lmao wow what a waste of time. i guess either he got scared or just i dont know because after we went on our date he stopped calling and texting and i would text him and nothing so whatever fuck it . it wasnt me cuz he came onto me and asked me to sleep over and he was the one dancing on me and flirting with me and kissing me..fuck outta here weird ass. so yeah im not talking to ANYBODY right now which is a first cuz usually im talking to someone. im just gunna focus on me right now. try to work hard and have fun. feel me? but other then that nothin much..same old shit different day. my sleep schedule is wack so needa work on that .. but yeah thats all for now . comments would be good..ima chill a little before i hit the gym for 3 hours. - peace.

bloggin from tampa.

2009-06-26T14:54:00.000-07:00

so yeah im at my besties crib. i surprised her for her 19th bday by coming up here with out other good friend candra and she was happy. but yeah im bloggin before i go with her and her boyfriend and candra and they i guess getting tatts. i did think about getting one but my mother would kill my ass. my mama is a catholic and feels that tatts are the sign of satan or some shit lol so i dont want her to kick my ass out . so ima just be a good boy! was gunna do another piercing but ehhh rather keep the money for something more important . anyways nothin really been going on. still unemployed and looking for work but there isnt anything out there...so i guess ima have to go work at a fast food place. ugh =/ which sux . but whatever i need to get my cash up asap. this recession got me and alot of americans FUCKED UP!

umm yeah so that club that changed rules on me is open back up to 18 year olds. THANK GOD! but now the price is 15 dollars for entry....wtf? ummmmmm lol its bad enough gotta spend 20 bucks on gas to get there now 15 for entry? pshhh ill be going twice a month if that. lol but i am happy its open to 18 year olds again because the palm beach gay clubs are shitty and its all the same faces so yeah.

i just got back from seeing "my sisters keeper" and it was long but sad. didnt ball my eyes out like i thought i would but i did get choked up at some parts but 1 outta 5 ima give it a 4 ina half. cant wait to see tyler perrys new movie "i can do bad by myself" and this movie called "precious" which is about a fat black girl and mo'nique is in it...looks really sad. but yeah nothing really much else cept im talking to somebody new...his name is jovanny...sexy right? lol he's real cute and we got a date on saturday...well semi-date we just chillen at his crib lol so yeah he makes me smile alot and laugh...so thats 2 pluses...but then again im not gunna fall for it til i see em in person...ive had too many experiences w/ dudes acting different in person so we shall see. anyways ima end it here. comments would be cool . ciao!

chile i guess.

2009-06-16T16:41:00.000-07:00

so yeah this weekend was okay . had to work on friday and saturday made 110 bucks in 2 nights which where can you make that at? lol exactly no where. on friday just went home and watched sex and the city dvd series and fell asleep. saturday went to club chances w/ my bitches angie and her girlfriend tip and got my dance on. tired of that club tho. for 2 reasons...its all age and hate being ina place w/ mostly jits and its straight . full of thugs walkin around thinkin they the shit when they a mess all half steppin and shit . i love watchin them try to dance on females and the girls are like "uh uh nigga back up" lmao . but yeah and then sunday well i think this needs its own section...ugh

sunday...went to the movies with my homeboy danny and saw that cartoon movie UP lol why? because danny left his ID at home so we couldnt see a rated R movie and that UP movie was the only one playing so whatev it was pretty damn funny. then went home got some ice cream on the way and watched a chunky monkey watching sex & the city and lewis hit me up..wanting to hook up. lol well im like fuck i just ate ice cream and my stomach hurts so i took some gas x to take it away..showered..got ready and went over there after he begged for 10 minutes. started making out and took off clothes and then i went downtown for a little bit and then im like okay i guess we can fuck so he put on a condom..we both lubed up and he put in a little bit and lord did it hurt . and that was just like the head and his shit is much longer im like fuck .. had to take deep breaths and dig my head in the pillow...then i said stop .. keep taking it slow .. so he did and kept asking if i was okay and i just said keep going so we was hunching for like 2 minutes then my stomach started turning and hurting im like i cant stop stop and the pain from my stomach plus taking it in the butt i couldnt relax so yeah and i just went in the bathroom splashed water on my face..and yeah...i said we gotta do this another time and he seemed mad so i went home and yeah it hasnt been really cool between us . and i saw i left my ID at his crib so had to go back last night to get it and i guess he wanted a kiss but didnt give him one .. always good to be a tease .. so idk . im not tryna be a booty call . tired of that . im looking for the REAL thing but ugh whatev . like im not desperate or nothing im semi picky but still just wanna have that feeling of bein with someone again ughh i guess the only bitches who understand me are the brawds on sex & the city . oh and i lightend my hair .. ill have pixx of it soon =]

me and my homie danny wanna go on a roadtrip i guess to tampa or whatev to bushe gardens since he never been. so im thinkin since my bestie lives there and she got this free pass thing for bushe gardens...ill use her free pass..and danny just buys his ticket and pays for gas and ill pay for the hotel..thats fair right? cuz i wanna get away too and just take a little time away from palm beach. like i hate it here but then again i cant leave i dont get it! so yeah gotta talk to him more bout that and i also wanna go to bushe gardens cuz the last time i went...i went for 30 minutes cuz i got food poisioning and was barfing like non-stop so yeah lol not cute.

im ready for kanye and gaga to go on tour - think ima go to that! and one of my favorite comedians KATHY GRIFFIN coming in august down here so ima go see her since i missed her last show! and i love her attitude and how she makes fun of people its hilarious so yeah probly gunna tell my sis who loves her too and we will probly go but yeah well this shit is too long . im done . comments would be great . thnx

jack the rippa.

2009-06-11T17:36:00.000-07:00

yes bitches new look . featuring ms.jacki-o...like foreal ive been feeling her music. at 1st i only liked her 1st 2 albums and now im listening to her mixtapes and ugh i love her! and i love how she dont ghost write she writes her own shit . i remember when khia and jacki had beef i use to stick on khias side but now jacki got my respect...i wanna see this bitch live one day and i love how she only lives like 1 hour away from my area haha . anyways and yes i do got some explicit pics on here but hey i dont give a fuck im grown....

so like im so upset. cloud 9 which is my favorite club in ft.lauderdale..its like my 2nd home..is turning into a 21+ club now. UGH! so not fair! im praying they start to go broke and they change the rules again because the majority of people who go are all underage so they gunna lose mad money. so now me and the bitches gotta find a new club to kick it at . ugh hate trying somewhere new because you gotta get use to the vibe of it and shit and blahhhhhh not up for that bullshit. PLUS i would get in free at cloud 9 if i went before 10..most clubs dont do that...so ima have to pay for entry plus gas . ugh! might as well just stop clubbin as much . sheesh .

411 with lewis. man im confused about him. it seems like he dont wanna relationship just wanna whatever. he wanted to have sex after the 2nd day of chillin? wtf? um no? well yeah i wanted it but im not tryna rush shit anymore. and i do really like him alot but if im gunna be a booty call? sike. not gunna happen. i respect myself. but last night i get home from the club and he wrote me on yahoo saying he missed me and yeah usually he don't do that. usually I have to say it to him. idk i wanna see him soon though..i guess the other night was half my fault cuz we was heavy making out and was all over eachother but i cant stand how guys CANT control themselves. smh at them. but yeah i do like em tho but we have 2 different minds so i dont know what to do and he dont like talking that much about relationships . like every man -rollz eyes- but yeah anyways..

still looking for work. this club owner wrote me on myspace asking he'll pay me to promote but i heard that line before..when i helped i didnt see a fucking nickel but we shall see..i do need money. asap! lol well thats about it . off to the gym bitches to work on my fatass lolol oh & happy bday anthony =] mk ciao!

weekend update.

2009-06-07T16:03:00.000-07:00

so damn its already sunday . sheesh this weekend went by quick . well ima try and make this short . ummm friday didnt do much but went to the gym - got me and moms some jamba juice and came home and showered. date got canceled. why? because he went to 305 at like 5am and didnt get back til 6pm so he was tired and took a nap til like 10...and plus it was raining so the weather did kill the mood. but we started talking on yahoo and he was like i really wanna see you and he's like would you come over if i asked? so i said yeah and that's what i did lol . got showered and dressed then left and as im driving i get pulled over by a cop lolol uh oh . he's like you were going 10 miles over the speed limit .. didnt even notice i was just chillen and vibin to my music lol woops and i didnt have my license on me so im like FUCK! lol but i showed him my insurance and registration then he went to go look up my license and as he was doing that this drunk driver was driving by on the WRONG SIDE of the road so he came back and gave me my stuff .. he's like "slow it down..and have a good night i have to go catch this guy" phew! thank jesus i didnt get no ticket! that was luck right there!

anywho got to his house..he's really skinny that's all i can say. but he got nice curly hair and it was all wet he was cute. so we was driving around and talking and he's like you look different from your pics im like idk how? he said but its a good thing. lol so whatever then after driving around we parked in front of his crib..and talked more then he talked bout kissing .. and thats what happened...started making out for a little..stopped...talked more..made out again lolol and took it to the backseat and was just touching on eachother etc then it got to 5:30 and i was there since like 2:15...so we both were a little tired..so we said goodnight and yeah i went home. got on yahoo and he was on we sayed we missed eachother etc...

saturday - went to cloud 9 with my bitch angie...usually we roll deep but we didn't . we chilled with her ex stud gf and our other homegirl mercedes....lewis didnt come because he's been ina sad mood - i guess someone close to him killed themselves...so yeah i'm tryna comfort him but he don't wanna talk much he's real sad he said...at first i thought i was being ignored and he wasn't interested but he apologized for not talking much so that's good.

now im tryna go to the movies with my friend but i dont know if he wants too . im just bored as fuck so whatever . tomorrow its back to the gym .. and im gunna push myself to work out for 2 hours monday-friday. mhmm but yeah ima vibe to this new jacki-o mixtape that i've been waiting for and just chill i guess . if you like jacki-o and want the mixtape just click the pic below! or right click and hit copy shortcut if it dont click 4 you ... but yeah mk ciao!

typical thursday / new look !

2009-06-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

so yeah to start shit off ... ummm i dont know what i was thinking when i just ate these 2 ice cream cones : now tomorrow ima have to work out for 2 hours . for some reason like i guess im losing weight on my body but my face remains the same . how the fuck do you work out your face...anyone know? ugh and i think ima do blonde highlights again to make my hair look a little different because i got alot of compliments when i did that so yeah lol.. anyways so me and my bestfriend lauren i guess aren't on good terms no more...why? well i told her i'm not ready for tampa. like financially. she expects me to have like 3,000+ dollars by sept.1st to move up there...i dont even got a job yet! nobody is hiring. economy sucks. and i got my cell phone bill plus gas plus car insurance..get the fuck outta here. so yeah i mean i did want too but its too much stress for me right now i just wanna relax...find a job and live life easily for a little bit. understandable...right?

um so yeah i have a date tomorrow night. yes i'm nervous. i always think of what happened to me like 2 years ago when i talked with this guy for like 2 weeks and we kinda made it official then we met in person...and he used me to mess around then he dumped me = well we aint gunna mess around or nothing but i'm scared he might say oh your chubby .. no thanks. honestly if that happens i'll probly stop talking to boys completely. i told em upfront my height and weight and he says he don't care about any of that but i've heard that line before...but i guess he might different. i'm hoping. lol well his name is lewis. he's cuban. you should hear his spanish accsent so cute. some stuff he doesn't know how to say it in english terms and usually that would annoy me but with him he makes it very cute lol . but yeah idk what we are doing tomorrow night but i guess he's coming with me on saturday to cloud 9. he's never been to a gay club and wants to go lolol and i know all the homos will be on him like flies on shit but whatever he aint my boyfriend lol i do like em tho. he's like i like the way your attitude is..so straight forward and how you dress lolol...he ain't seen nothing yet. but he's mad sweet yo he has me blushin all the time but im praying he's the same way in person...if not then ugh i give up on relationships. but here's a pic of him . tell me what yall think of him . i think he's a cutie . lol

but yeah thats about it . still job searching and doing the gym thing. i'm trying to swim and do the gym so i get double work out because im dieing to hit my goals! sheesh . but yeah ill end it here . comments would be good . ohh and every1 should download this album . i give 5/5. its very good. lolol i always thought that he did better without pretty ricky because he was the one with the voice . mk ciao !

boring monday.

2009-06-01T21:09:00.001-07:00

[eats cashews] blah im bored so i decided to blog . um yeah last night i went to my first strip club . it was a straight one so right when you walked in you smelt pussy . and of course my homegirls loving sitting close to watch the girls dance moves so the strippers come to me since im white and expect me to tip so i tipped like 5 different girls 2 bucks lol . not gunna lie tho some bitches make me wanna turn to the other side . haha . and of course there was hella fine thugs up in there but some were a hot mess and just straight raggedy! and ace hood broke ass was there lol pshh please....

oh yeah ima graduate now. finally done with highschool. and nope i didnt cry! which was shocking...but it was hot as hell at that graduation thank god it was only 1 hour and 30 minutes lol. but my mom cryed and after my parents and friends and i went to the cheesecake factory got fat and then i went to project graduation at fun depot and played video games..did race cars and did laser tag til 5 in the morning because we were on lockdown lol and just hung out with my friends that ima probly not see for a little bit but yeah it was fun but now the next step is getting a job and going to community college. but im tryna focus more on losing my weight and getting a job but this fucking recession is not helping a bitch out at all . but ughh and now im 230lbs and 36w now im trying to get to 32w and 200lbs...sheesh but it sucks having to work out. im trying to push myself to work out 2hours and burn 450calories a day but it hurts after! ughh sucks being fat !

well wednesday im going to cloud nine which is my favorite gay club! its like the hood gay club. all the studs...trades...punks...lesbos and gay boys be in that muthafcker. even tho i'm like the only white person i dont care! love it! and i'm hoping i get my popular phasion zebra scarf before then! cuz i really wanna wear dat shit cuz its never been done. but yeah i saw the new twilight preview and must say looks good. specially that wolf boy. sexy ass. lmao! lemme stop! but i heard twilight won like EVERYTHING on the movie awards. figures. lol but yeah ima go and read my fellow bloggers. so like make sure you FOLLOW me mk ? and comments would be nice .. mk well later blogspot!

hello blogspot.

2009-05-25T23:10:00.001-07:00

surpriseeeeeeeee - im backkkkkkkk! lol how's it going blogspot? it's been a minute! well where oh where do i start...well umm my last day of highschool was MAY 1ST! lol ugh so happy to be done but to me i feel like im on a longggggg vacation..but now my ass has to realize im part of the REAL world now. eeeeek. but yeah tomorrow i'm going bowling w/my senior class and then wednesday we got our senior breakfest and practice for graduation +++ at 3 i got a 2nd part of this job interview at steak n shake lol and then thursday is my graduation! ugh! im kinda nervous because i have a feeling i'm going to cry. specially when i see my mama and sister crying. plus my bestie is coming down w/her current boyfriend and we are all going out to the cheese cake factory after so that should be fun! so im tryna fast and lose some weight before that. umm yeah speaking of losing weight i was a 42w and 2XL and 3XL type shirts...im now 36W and L and sometimes XL shirts =] but to me im still a whale. everyone tells me ive lost SOOOO much weight but trust me bitch i havent seen it . so yeah moving on .....

how was everyones memorial day weekend? well mine was semi-okay. friday and saturday went to my favoriteee club CLOUD 9! its like the hood gay club lol and sunday went to see DANCE FLICK which was cornyyyy as ever. like some parts WERE funny but most of it was womp womp womp. so yeah i wouldn't recommend it. all i know is i wanna see Drag Me 2 Hell and the new HALLOWEEN 2 .. ugh! yes!

currently im single...not talking to anyone..kinda wish i was. ill admit im still not over my ex [fernando] specially since he keeps popping up in my life somehow. like the other day i come home from the gym & subway and put my shit down on the kitchen counter and i look to my right a little bit and see a palm beach library card that says "fernando m" on it .. im like wtf? then i look more around it and i see his drivers license and wallet and old cards and social sercurity shit im like WTF!!!! seriously is this a joke? and then my mom said my dad found it by my window out by the pool and i remember when nando use to sneek in he must of dropped it and we thought he lost it out in the city somewhere and its been outside my house since december? it was full of mildew but his ID and social sercurity was fine so now i got all that shit and got no idea what to do with it because i cant go give it to his family because they didnt know about us so ugh . oh yeah by the way he got out of jail .. and was sent to prison for 2 years ina half years . he will be released in december of 2011 . fucked up justice system right? i feel bad. because he would always tell me he couldn't handle prison but i dont know ima pray for him that he is safe and doesn't get ass-raped or any kinda sickness..or jumped. why am i still careing for him and still in love with him? i got no fucking clue. specially now he got a record...wtf ima do with that? and all my friends & family say FORGET him and drop him but i keep thinking of the times we spent together everyday and its like ugh! its soooo hard for me .

but then again ive got a little crush on this boy chris . yeah he's 17 and now a senior in highschool but i dont care hes so cute but he's also taken . ugh . that always happens to me i start diggin someone OUT my league or someone who is taken. my luck sucks i guess im not made for a relationship . but yeah and im most likely moving to tampa in september w/ my bestie and like i love the area and id love to start fresh but ima miss palm beach and miss my friends here and miss my life here. and im not fully ready for all that being away from my moms . so i dont know i need to get some balls and get over this heart ache and sadness i have going on . mk well ima end it here . comments would be good . im back so add me to your bloglist! laterrrrrrrrrr .

oh and here is a pic of nando . mugshot from dec.15th..when he was doing methadone and then the recent mugshot.. he looks SOOOOO much better now and he has color and looks grown . ugh i miss my bae =[